The kids draw a lot of pictures of me. With them, with daddy, me doing different activities, you name it, they have probably drawn it. I always smile and hug them but inside I'm full belly laughing!
But today I saw a picture that Jain had drawn of me for Mothers Day. My hair is in a pony and I have bright red lipstick. But the thing I noticed is that to her, I was normal. And pretty. And yellow.
I got thinking that they always draw me this way. Well maybe not always yellow.
My right eye is blurry and sewn smaller to help me blink. My whole right side is paralyzed and I have to concentrate just to form words. I feel deformed. But to my kids, I'm just mom.
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Second, my nephew, Tanner, got married last Saturday in San Diego. As my brother, Craig, said, "Heaven is only a little less wonderful." The weather was perfect, Tanner and Christon were an adorable couple, Robert had a great weekend with the kids by himself, I got to see my brother, Craig, who lives in Virginia, and best of all, Robert made sure I had my very own room. MY VERY OWN ROOM. I spent lots of time with my siblings but had plenty of time to sit on my balcony, watch and listen to the ocean, and relax.
|My view while having breakfast at the hotel|
|Craig, mom, me, Matthews head, Olivia and Wendy (couldn't look away from the ocean.)|
|What Wendy couldn't look away from|
|My view from my balcony|
|Tommy bowing to Master Johny.He got his belt before his uniform|
A few days after getting back, Ana Jain had a scope at Primary Children's Medical Center. Going there always breaks my heart to see so much sadness. I have to talk myself into not bursting into tears for every family there. And I always leave there feeling so blessed that for right this second, my children are healthy. Anyway, Jain was treated like royalty and everything looked nice and healthy. Thank goodness! Robert was coming and going from his office about a mile away, and, well, I'm strokey, so we were very happy that Wendy agreed to come along. Jain was just more relaxed and happy with Wendy there. Thank you, Wendy (bonus mom)!!
|She is not at all sure about all this|
|No wheelchairs here! She got to ride out in a wagon pulled by Wendy|
The day after, I got to go see what Aleq has been doing after school. It's called Lego Mindstorms and he and his partner, Jackson, have programmed their robot to go through a maze. Sounds simple but it's not! It has been very intense and involves working with computers etc. that I may never understand.
|Working on some final touches|
|The boys with their creation. Keep in mind that many kids were around me and I was trying to keep my balance.|
As I was reading today, many other stroke survivors experience this. It was very therapeutic for me to read other people's stories and know that (just this once) I'm not totally crazy. It's a thing. It's anecdotal evidence for me but I'll take it. Although I can't take back what I said, I feel better knowing that A) I'm not just a mean person and B) I'm not alone on this.
Sorry if I offended you!