Monday, July 8, 2013

Self Pity

A few days ago I went shopping at City Creek with my friend, Karen. She had to make a return and I had to use the restroom so we split up. I walked down the hall by myself and just as
I turned the corner I nearly collided with two young teenage girls. I said,  "Excuse me." and moved out of their way as best as I could, which wasn't really graceful and included stumbling and grabbing the wall for balance. The girls didn't say anything, just looked at me and walked around me.
As I was reaching for the door handle, I heard one of the girls whisper something and they both started to laugh.
I guess they could have been talking about something besides me but the timing...
I'm not going to lie, it hurt my feelings. Intellectually I understand that they are young, I am tough, blah, blah, blah. But I'm human and it hurt my heart.  I mean really, did we learn nothing from Tina Fay about how to treat other females? Sheesh!
This isn't the first or last time this has happened. I don't mind the children who are genuinely curious and don't have a bit of cruelty, or even the adults who are brave enough to approach me or kind to me. But every once in a while I get condescending or rude stares or the occasional comment or giggle. Sometimes I just want to walk up to them and ask if they would like a better view. Once when two guys were openly gaping at me, I looked right at them and burst out singing the theme from "The Love Boat. "
I realize that I am just feeling sorry for myself, whether or not I feel justified, and that does me exactly NO good.  But every so often I reserve the right to feel some self pity. We all should. It's actually very gratifying.  But the feeling can only last a few moments because I have too much to do.
Like playing Monopoly Jr. with the critters and watching M*A*S*H reruns with Robert.

"Courage is something you shouldn't be afraid to have." Frank Burns, M*A*S*H


  1. You do deserve to feel that way! I do it too! If we didn't we wouldn't be human. I'm so sorry that that happens. It happens to Dakota all the time too. Most of the time it makes me laugh but sometimes it hurts. Just the other day there were two older teenage girls staring at him, whispering, and then started laughing as they continued staring. It was the first time I thought he was really being made fun of. It pissed me off so bad I wanted to go smack them in the face but I didn't...luckily...I am a 29 year old woman! ;) Sure love you Jodi! Thanks for your honesty!!

  2. Wish I had been there. I would have calmly explained your situation, all the pain you have been through, the suffering of your sweet children and husband, how we thank Heaven every day that you are alive, how this could happen to them or someone they love..........then I would have beat the crap out of them.